Today marks three weeks that I've been home since Europe and my feelings are so fickle and all over the place. Since arriving home, I have so enjoyed being with family and friends and have been trying my best to get organized for the upcoming school year and cheerleading season. A first year teacher and a second year coach!
It's so strange being home though because nothing has changed, except for me... And not that home needed to change, and it doesn't. This place and the people here are so precious to me and always will be.
(enter: me being really transparent and vulnerable)
Before leaving to Europe, I figured I would go and travel for 4 months and then come home and be content to settle down and stay here for a while (or forever haha...) I couldn't imagine moving away, especially moving away alone.
But now that I have returned (and many all my friends who are my age/season of life have moved away), I feel unsettled... Like I am missing out? I thought that 4 months would be a great change of pace for me, I could go and have adventures and then be ready to return home...But no, it only made me want more "adventures" and difference?
Home will always be home, and home will always be here. Family will always be family, and family will always be here.
I don't want to settle anymore - yet anyways. I feel so young and that this is the time where I should be going near and far and exploring more of God's beautiful world and meeting people and living life to the fullest!
Maybe I am being dramatic (haha), and maybe these feelings will change again - who knows - but I literally never even imagined myself having the desire to go somewhere new? I love the place I live and the people here. But now I feel like I would be more content going somewhere new now, and then returning later. I thought I had my plans for my life figured out...But I think that God might have something else in mind?
"The heart of man plans his way, but the Lord establishes his steps." Proverbs 16:9
"Many are the plans in a person's heart, but it's the Lord's purpose that prevails." Proverbs 19:21
I am so confused, and I have no idea what the future holds, but I am PRAISING God because I know that He holds my future.
Xo,
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